Judas Lament

Have you no prayer for me?
Simon you saved from the sifting, but have you no prayer for me?
Why didn't you hint to me to turn back?
Was it because you knew I listened more closely when I was eavesdropping?
Did you love me at all, or am I Esau's twin?
Did you resent my sweat, my wet-dreams, my greed while you savored their vanity?
Why was the only kiss you ever gave me stolen?
Did you leave me hung out to dry to test your mother?
Were you hoping to find her capable of loving the traitor?
If that's the case, she failed.